After living in Bridgeport, I had thought living back home in Starlight Shores would be boring, but it was anything but. I had quit my job, but I was taking an online course in website design. I was good with computers, and I loved the artsy part of it as well, so it was a good area for me. Still, though, I had forever to find where I should be.
I was spending a lot of time with my little adorable niece and nephew. I knew me being there took a lot of pressure off Hamish and Mary. Hamish had to work a lot, and I know Mary really appreciated me being there for park trips and other things. Twins were a big handful.
I was also getting to know the Starlight Shores nightlife. Though it didn’t have nearly as much to offer as Bridgeport, it was still pretty good. One of my favourite places was the karaoke bar. Yes, most of the people doing karaoke were terrible, but it was great to go. It was a very welcoming feeling at the local karaoke bar.
One night I was at the karaoke bar, when I felt a tap on my shoulders and I spun around to see the last person on earth that I wanted to see.
“Eilidh!” he said happily, as if he hadn’t completely broke my heart, “How are you? Are you visiting home? How are your family?” I glared at him.
“I live here, now. I’m fine, no thanks to you,” I said coldly. He gulped.
“Look, Eilidh, I’m sorry-” he started but I cut him off.
“Oh save it for someone who’ll listen,” I snapped. He looked slightly taken aback.
“Please, just let me explain, Eilidh,” Nicholas said. I shook my head and I couldn’t hold back my anger.
I slapped him.
“I said save it. Do you have any idea what you did to me? No, not at all. Just get away from me, Nicholas. I don’t want to see your face again!” I yelled. He sighed.
“I guess I did deserve that,” he said, “I was a jerk, and I know that. I love you, Eilidh, and I know I should’ve left Katarina before I got involved with you but I fell for you and I wasn’t thinking.”
“Oh, shut up,” I said.
“Please, Eilidh. Place can I explain?” he asked.
“No. Now go away,” I said. I walked over to the other side of the room, furious. Why did he have to be here? Why was he even here? Was he following me? He knew I was from Starlight Shores, that my family lived there. Had he gone by the apartment and realised I wasn’t there anymore? Was he just feigning surprise to see me there?
I knew one thing, though. He had completely ruined the night for me.
I went home, my head full of thoughts of that jerk, who I had left Bridgeport because. He claimed that he loved me, but I doubt he even knew what that meant. I had loved him. He had been my first serious boyfriend. He had taken my heart and then ripped it into tiny pieces. And he was expecting me to listen to him? There was nothing to listen to! Our whole relationship was a lie.
A few weeks went by, and Mary came to me to tell me that she and Hamish were moving out.
“With the money Hamish has saved from work we found a place, and we really appreciate everything you’ve done for us, but we need our own place. You can visit a lot, I know Janie and Georgie will miss their Aunt Eilidh – are you okay?” she said. I hesitated, and before I knew it, I had told Mary everything. She looked at me pityingly, before sighing.
“Please don’t yell at me, but I think you should let him explain. Once he’s explained, maybe it will take things off your mind. This has been weighing you down for a long time. He’s a jerk, and you should never let Hamish or your father know him about this because they will rip him to shreds, but just let him say his bit and maybe you’ll stop thinking about it as much,” she said. I frowned, but I knew she was right.
So later that day I called him hesitantly. I wasn’t sure why I had his number in my phone still, but there it was.
“Eilidh? I wasn’t expecting you to call,” he said.
“I’m going to let you explain,” was all I said in response. We arranged a time for him to come over to the house, which I was very hesitant about, but I eventually agreed to. It was all set. I was going to have my answers, then he was going to get out my life and out of my thoughts.
That night he came into the house and I took him into the lounge. I looked at him, before sitting down.
“Explain, then,” I said.
“Well, I guess I’ll have to go back to the beginning. Katarina and I started dating in college. We had both grown up together in Sunset Valley, but hadn’t paid much attention to each other until we ended up at the same college knowing no one but each other. We became friends, and near the end of college we got together, because it seemed natural. But after college, Katarina was going back to Sunset Valley and I was going to Bridgeport. I felt that was lucky. I didn’t really love Katarina. I liked her well enough, but I knew if we continued to be together I would come to hate her because I didn’t love her. I found us going to separate places as an easy way to break it off. I was going to, but then Katarina told me she was pregnant. I couldn’t break it off then. There was only one thing I could do. We got married quickly and moved to Sunset Valley, but I resented it. Not my girl. My little Leila was beautiful, the best of Katarina and I, but I was grateful when my job had me spend as much time in Bridgeport as I did in Sunset Valley. I began to hate my wife, feeling as if she had trapped me into a loveless marriage. I felt stuck, and my time in Bridgeport felt as if I were in another life, the life I should’ve had, if it weren’t for Leila. I know, what I did was wrong, and I’m a terrible person, but you have to understand that I felt my life was stolen from me, and you were part of that life that I should’ve had – I’m sorry,” he said. I sighed.
“Look – shit happens. But just because she was pregnant didn’t mean you should’ve married her. When you knew the marriage wasn’t working, you shouldn’t have stayed married to her. That was unfair to Katarina and to your daughter. I do understand though – in a way. You handled it badly, but it was… I don’t know. Maybe I don’t hate you so much now,” I said softly. He looked at me.
“So much. I guess you don’t want to give us another chance, then? I promise I’m not married,” he said.
“Maybe we can be friends,” I said. He nodded.
I stood up and walked towards the door to let him out, when he reached out and tried to turn me around.
He leaned in to kiss me, and I pushed him away.
“Let’s not ruin it, huh?” I said. He nodded.
“Sorry,” he replied.
“So, why are you Starlight Shores anyway?” I asked as we walked towards the door.
“My job transferred me here. Believe me, it wasn’t my choice. I was as surprised to see you as you were to see me,” Nicholas said. I nodded.
“Well, maybe it’s a good thing. That way I got my explanation that I needed, and maybe you have a friend in a strange place,” I said. He smiled, before walking out the door.
“Good night, Eilidh,” he said.
“Bye.” I watched him leave, and headed upstairs, deciding that a nice night swim would help me clear my mind.
The water was nice and cool and exactly what I needed. Relaxing, and it helped me put my thoughts together. Yes, Nicholas had behaved badly, but he had tried to do the right thing with Katarina. I understood why he did what he did, even if it had hurt myself and Katarina in the process. But mostly, I realised something else.
I was still in love with him, despite what he had done.
AN~ So this was a very word-heavy picture-light chapter. But it’s here. I got my computer back, obviously, so updates should be fairly regular again, especially since I’m nearly done with all my current assignments and I have a two week break in two weeks.
Anyway, I’ve been sitting on this for awhile, which I guess is why there are so many words. I’m not sorry though, I’m glad to have more stuff out in the open. It will be interesting to see reactions though make sure to tell me what you think of Nicholas. Personally, I still think it was a douche move, but you know, Eilidh loves him, and the heat wants what the heart wants 😛